Nine hour days have gotten old…..I am ready for the weekend! Even if I will not get to do “all the things that I want to do” , it will be fun.
I have stretched myself with my reading challenge this year. I have read many things that I would not have ordinarily read. I think I am going to create my own reading challenge next year. Maybe read a book published in each year of my life…..hmmm.
My dog has left again. I feel so rejected!
So, September 30 is our year end. I have been extremely busy getting everything closed out and balanced. I switched accounting software during the last year so it was extra challenging trying to remember why I did what I did nine months ago…. but it is all good.
I can’t help recall that one year ago today was the last time I saw Daddy in the house, in his chair. We put him in the hospital on October 9th. I remember going over there on David’s birthday as he had been falling and I just wanted to check on him. I remember telling him that it was David’s birthday. My Daddy loved David so much. But what’s not to love? He has always been there to help them. I truly married well. (Happy Birthday Mr. Wonderful).
I find myself so emotional. I am crying even as I type. I cry in church, I cry in bed, I cry in the car….. I am just a big ole baby. I know this whole month is going to be hard. I am going to try and make it through without being a total blubbering sop, but I think it is okay to be a little emotional and nostalgic.
I also hope that as I complete the 12th Month of life without, that I can move forward. I have not moved forward in many things and it is time.
Here we go.
September 28, 2015 11:11 am
I was asked a question yesterday that I have never really considered. “What makes grandchildren so special?”. Well first of all you know that the question came from someone who has no grandchildren, otherwise words would not be necessary. So I find myself getting choked up as I try to put into words the overwhelming love I have in my heart. But the words that I said were these:
When you look into the eyes of this child that loves you unconditionally from the aspect of wisdom that life has given you; you treasure what you now know will be a fleeting time to enjoy this precious life. In addition you get to see the child you have raised become a parent and the combination of the two can almost make your heart explode with joy. As I write this my eyes fill with tears. Truly it is not a thing that can be explained, but it is a love that almost hurts it is so deep.
The explanation is totally inadequate. I have been blessed beyond measure. Eight precious little ones and no two of them are even similar. But I love them all so completely, and nothing gives me greater joy than knowing that they love me too….so much MORE than words….
September 24, 2015 8:55 am
When I open my eyes and ears I do hear God. He speaks to all of us through his Spirit when we are in tune. Oh yeah, many times I have my “tuner” to another station, but when I do hear Him, it startles me.
I have sang the praises of my Daily Audio Bible app more than once. I am grateful to Stephen Skinner for posting about it on Facebook, because it has become a part of my life. Most of the time I only listen to the scripture, sometimes I listen to his follow up but many times it is time to turn off the Bluetooth and get to work! This morning, for the third time in less than a month the follow-up talk addressed me specifically. It is almost like he has a direct link into my dressing area…or my brain. I was lamenting this morning how our savings have been depleted by the issues of our lake house. He spoke of how we make idols out of our savings accounts or lack there of…. I mean the thought had barely escaped my brain when he said this. Why do I doubt? If I am plugged into God’s word, His Spirit can speak through the word, or the words of the man who makes it available. The other two times were just as specific and were the exact words I needed to hear that day.
I am not going to lie, (I love it when people say that…like what? do you lie most of the time?) I am a wonderer. I wonder if I am doing the right thing in the right place and in the right way…or maybe there is just a better thing in a better place in a better way. I also can worry (although I try hard not to) if I am doing things the right way. I need the assurance sometimes that I am ok. God is good at that. His grace reaches me…..yes even me!
September 23, 2015 9:40 am
We had a wonderful trip to Asheville. It is such a beautiful place and we had amazing weather the whole time we were there. We had Friday afternoon off so took off to a little quaint village up in the mountains. The ride, the scenery and the little shops were all amazing. The group of ladies all got along great and we just had an amazing time. On Friday night there was a music festival downtown. Some of us stayed for that, some just explored the shops downtown. It was all a really good time. The tennis was fun too! We lost the first round in a couple of really close matches. But it took the pressure off and I let everyone play twice. Of course we wanted to play more, but it was fun. Terry and I rode and roomed together and I think we talked all the way back home (6 hours)….. I know my throat was sore…
Getting back is always hard. It was a LONG drive Sunday afternoon and although it was only three nights I got used to Eastern time and am having trouble adjusting back. I am just tired. I played last night and that should finish up the Combo season for me. Of course the next season will start soon.
An amazing thing to me is how much I missed being at church. I only missed Wednesday and Sunday, but it has been a long time since I truly missed it this much. Maybe some of it is missing my grandchildren. Hopefully I will get to see all of them tonight.
Oh well, the end of our fiscal year is upon me…. and I am behind here too, so I must work!
September 15, 2015 11:11 am
It has been a crazy couple of weeks. My brother arrived on the 2nd and I will take them back to the airport tomorrow. Time surely flies these days. We were able to get all of my bunch together at Mom’s this past Sunday. That was good, except that Mom and David both felt bad. But they pressed on and made it a really good day.
I was able to play tennis a couple of times over the weekend in preparation for our tournament this week! I am so excited. We leave for Ashville early Thursday morning. It should be a bunch of fun! It might also be interesting; one of the ladies I am sharing a villa with is an Ole Miss graduate….. I hope my Tide rolls, but we will see.
I am trying really hard to live Philippians 4:6 right now: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation by prayer and petition with thanksgiving present your requests to God”. But I will confess that it has been a bit of a struggle. Seems like for every good thing that happens…..two bad things crop up. I know that worry does not resolve anything, but I just want things fixed….yesterday! God forgive me for my impatience!
Oh, and work has been crazy too, one of my ladies had her appendix out the day after labor day. We have been short handed until today and very busy! But its all good. The weather is spectacular and I do work where taking off this week will not be an issue!
Smiling and trying to make it reach the inside….
September 10, 2015 7:42 am
My reoccurring theme for the summer seems to center around the book of Jonah. Oh I know there are other themes for the summer, but it occurred to me this morning that I have done three or four studies on this topic in a very short time frame. This morning during my devotional time something made me think of Jonah again. I was thinking about the point that false teachers sometimes still preach some truth and true followers sometimes speak a truth that they do not even believe.
God uses all kinds of vessels to get His message out. Even when we are unwilling to do what he asks us to do, he still uses us. Jonah is the best example of that. But the flip side is that sometimes we do not hear anything someone has to say if they have ever disappointed us, either personally, professionally or spiritually. I think that is a mistake. God’s Holy Spirit can speak through a donkey. I am guilty of not liking a stand or direction that a speaker or author takes and sometimes just refuse to listen to anything else that person has to say. People who lead or write spend a lot of time studying and seeking God’s will. They are not infallible, but just as God used Jonah he can use them too.
Sometimes it is hard to listen to anything new with an open mind, or anything old that your mind has been made up about for a long time. But, can I test my faith by listening or reading with an open mind? Can I hear a side presented without getting angry and defensive and just see what the other person says? I have criticized others for discounting authors and speakers who changed their stance on certain issues; but am I guilty of the same?
I am just rambling here, but I can see three points in my thinking
- You know what you need to do and you know you don’t want to do it…. Do it anyway
- Just because someone does not believe everything just like you do, they still are a child of God and could be speaking through His Spirit.
- Quit running……you might get swallowed up!